Saturday, May 7, 2011

school, mostly

So as it's been a while since I updated this, I figure it's well past time to post. This past semester I haven't really had much of an impetus to do much crafting/blogging/whatnot and have mostly just been keeping myself as busy as possible with school and work. This hasn't really been the best semester, but I've survived, and sometimes that has to be enough.

I look at myself from a year ago, and in some ways I know I'm doing much better than I was, but in other ways I feel like I'm just stuck in the same rut forever and ever. I'm more comfortable with myself and have a better sense of self than I've ever had, really. I'm not afraid of everything anymore; I can look at something difficult and instead of trying to run from it, I think "I can do that" and even if there's a chance I might fail, I'm not afraid to try.

But at the same time, I am terrified, because there is a time coming up when I will have to figure out what I'm doing and where I'm going, and I have no idea what or where that is. Right now, I'm kind of stalling for time by taking courses that I can transfer back to Baylor that will count for my business degree, but I really have only one more semester of those before that option is gone. As of now, my options are to either go back to Baylor and finish my degree, figure out an associates degree at Blinn, or try to transfer somewhere else. Baylor is pretty much looking to be my best option, as I really don't want to stay in College Station longer than I have to and my gpa is less than optimal, but at the same time, it's Baylor, a private baptist university, with all that entails.

Anyway, after this next semester there'll be nothing left for me here but ghosts, so whatever I choose I'll be leaving, most likely. Hopefully by doing so I'll be able to find new reasons to keep going.

Been doing a bit of baking lately, my next post should be pics of rainbow cupcakes and muffins and sundry.