For whatever reason, this past year it's felt like things just kept happening and happening without any chance for me to catch up, and I've learned lots and become a much stronger person, but it's been difficult in many ways.
January through May, it seemed like things were going really well. I was working instead of being depressed and failing classes, and that helped me a lot because I really needed the discipline of getting up each morning and going to work whether I wanted to or not. I loved my job and it felt like things were actually going okay for once.
Then May hit, and it's like everything got screwed up and nothing's been going right since. I know that's not entirely true, since I'm in a much better place than I was a year ago, but since May it's felt like everything I try just goes wrong, to the point where I wonder if I should even bother. I can only hope that this next year will be different, but it makes me apprehensive towards the idea of trying anything, whether going back to school as a full time student instead of just taking two classes this next semester or attempting to plan a trip to visit friends over spring break.
Granted, there are some things that did work out this past year, sometimes far better than I expected. I have an awesome job, I'm actually attempting to be social again (which is something I rather gave up on after leaving Baylor), and I know who I am much better than I did at the start of the year. Overall, I'm a much healthier person than I was, even though I still have some things to work through. But it seems like I've had to give up a lot for each, and sometimes I wish I hadn't had to, even if it's been worth it in the long run.
This is the only thing I ask for next year: that I have a few chances for things to work out right, for once. That I have something turn out okay without having to sacrifice something else. It's a selfish wish, but it's difficult when I feel like I'm always fighting everything.
Anyway, I hope everyone has a happy holiday, however they choose to celebrate, and a happy and blessed new year.